Monday, July 13, 2009

gone too soon

Last Thursday, Baby Callie Alexandra came into this world but left us too soon. She will be terribly missed by my sister-in-law and her husband, grandparents, aunts and uncles and cousins. I had a chance to meet this little one who is absolutely beautiful. It breaks my heart to see her loving parents go through the loss of their first born.

Steph & Jay,
You are in my thoughts as you go through this very difficult time. I may not be able to comfort you with words but know that I am always here for you. Times will be hard, you may feel like you can't go on but there will be a better day. It may take a while to get there but time will heal. The pain will subside and you will know that Callie is in a better place. I truly wish that she wasn't taken from you.

I know that this song is cliché but it is only fitting for your loss. Rest in peace Baby Callie Alexandra. I am glad that I got the chance to meet you.

Thursday, July 9, 2009

OPI: Dutch Tulips

In a quick attempt to get a polish change, I stepped into a random nail salon by my work. The owner asked me to go get lunch first and come back. I asked her how much for a polish change, she said $7.00 and off I went to get my lunch. But I had to pick out a colour from the shelf of numerous OPI and Essie shades. I can give myself my own manicure and I have no problem painting my nails but sometimes, I just want to be pampered and have a different colour from the nail polishes I have at home. {When I think about it now, I should just go out and buy a bottle for $9 and then I can apply it many more times}. After trying on different colours, I finally settled with OPI's Dutch Tulips - a pink-red shade. I must say, I really like this colour. It pops with my tan and looks awesome on freshly cut and filed nails. It's great for the summer and I must try it on my toes next time.

When I got back to the office, I immediately went on OPI's website and started My OPI. It's part of their website where you can save the shades that you like and print it out to take with you to nail salons or to purchase them. It's a great way to keep track of the colours you have used in the past and would like to use again. So far, I have 14 on my list. It's an awesome tool to use for those addicted to getting their nails done.

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

death by suicide

Today, an ex-Toronto radio host died, apparently by suicide. I heard it on the news this morning and Andrew sent me a link to confirm. I don't and never have listen to The Edge 102.1 so I am not going to say that I knew of Martin Streek. I only found out about this radio host because of his death.

Suicide is something I don't think I will ever understand. I don't get why an individual would want to end their life. There are many questions I have about suicide and as part of my healing process is to read more about it. This may help me better understand why my brother chose to end his life. I had a brief discussion with my brother's best friend on Twitter and both of us agreed that we just want to 'understand', meaning we want to understand why my brother made this choice. I have fully accepted the fact that we will never know why he did this, or what he was feeling leading up to his last moments here on earth. There was no note (unlike Martin who left a coded message on his facebook status) and there was no signs of my brother wanting to commit suicide.

I detest it when people ask me if my brother was depressed. Maybe he was but you know what...none of us saw it. Sure, there may have been some little signs but the signs were not big enough for us to worry. For those who knew my brother, he was always happy and joking around. He had many friends (by the turnout at his funeral) and was always busy doing something. Then he got laid off. Things did not seem to be going well for him but then he opened up his own used record store. A dream of his since he loved music so much.

So my tie in with Martin Streek and my brother is it makes me wonder, for people who are so cheerful and full of life, how could they just snap and decide that they have had enough? Does losing one's job have a serious affect on them to make them think there is no other way to go on living? Were they really depressed and had a good way of hiding it? Suicide has so many questions and very little answers. I really wish that it didn't come to this for my brother. I wish that he had received help for whatever he was going through. And because of this life experience for me, I want to make sure that I can understand to a certain extent why people decide to end their life. I really would not wish this upon anyone to lose a loved one because they wanted to end it. To me, suicide only happens in movies, not in real life. After actually experiencing losing my brother, it does happen in real life and it's the worse thing anyone could go through - the "not knowing why"...

My heart goes out to the family and friends of Martin Streek. I know what they are going through and it must be so difficult for them.

Monday, July 6, 2009

fabFive songs for the week of Jul 6


FabFive Songs (Jul 6)

I feel I should explain the songs because they are so random. Song 1/ From episode 1 of the thirs season of Friday Night Lights (only the best TV show ever). Song 2/ Catch tune but even catchier when you see R.J. dance to it. Song 3/ Bubblegum Pop, my kinda of music and this song is my fav right now for the summer. Song 4/ Played at our cheesy anniversary dinner and then throughout our Cuba vacation. Song 5/ From The Proposal - Sandra Bullock is hilarious!!!

Friday, July 3, 2009

list of movies i want to watch (Jul edition)

It's that time again for me to list the movies I want to watch in the next six months. Since my February post, I have watched all the movies listed except for Fast & Furious.


July 24, 2009 - The Ugly Truth - looks like a funny movie from the trailer



August 7, 2009 - G.I. Joe: Rise of the Cobra - Channing Tatum...that's all I have to say. I don't care if the movie is crap, I just want to stare at him



August 21, 2009 - Post Grad - Two words - Matt Saracen (or Zach Gilford)



September 4, 2009 - All About Steve - Any romantic comedy with Sandra Bullock is a must-see



October 9, 2009 - Couples Retreat - I saw the trailer for this a few days ago and I will watch any movie that takes place on a resort on an island



November 13, 2009 - 2012 - me and my love for natural disaster movies



November 20, 2009 - The Twilight Saga: New Moon - do I need to say anything? I have already taken off the day to watch the first showing

Thursday, July 2, 2009

bare with me

My posts in the next couple of days are going to be all over the place. It may not go in the order that things have happened but eventually, I hope to get everything posted. I have had writer's block for some time but maybe after my cold goes away, I may get my head together and actually write. Stay tuned...

movie review: the proposal

I have wanted to watch this movie since I first saw the trailer and immediately I made a date with Kristine and Marah. Ryan Reynolds is hot and after seeing him as Deadpool in Wolverine, I just knew that I was obsessed and had to watch EVERY possible movie where Ryan is shirtless. This movie did the trick. But it's also a very funny romantic comedy. Sandra Bullock rocks (like in every other ro-com she's in). And as Maureen says, after watching this movie, you'll want to go to Alaska (but not me, cuz I've been there). Is this a date movie - hell ya! It's a movie you can take your guy to or watch with your girlfriends.

[blarkness rating: 5 out of 5]