Tuesday, April 2, 2013

All good things must come to an end

I just realized that it has been over a month since I last wrote a blog post. Part of it is because I have been so busy with work and the other part is because I just don't know what to write about anymore.

As I type this, my heart is pounding...just an FYI.

The month of March has been a whirlwind for me, more specifically the last couple weeks. I am ecstatic to announce that I have resigned from my job because I just accepted a new one. This is a huge step/change for me as I have been with my company for close to nine years. As an ex-coworker said, " you are a lifer, you will never leave this place", and I was convinced, she was right. But after a few stressful couple of months and a few years of being miserable and unhappy, I am ready to move on. The company I am going to work for is welcoming me with open arms, are truly excited that I will be joining their team and it feels good. I am not nervous at all about starting fresh, I am thrilled about it. 

In the beginning of this year, in the back of my mind, I had a feeling that this would be my year and getting a new job is just the start. I am ready to move forward and make more changes in my life. All it takes is one thing, leaping ahead and making that first step and I just know that the rest will fall into place. I am going to start this month with a new me. Since I will have to dress more professional for this new job, I am going to make a huge wardrobe change. And in order to do this, I must get my shop on, so why not do it in the fabulous New York City. Mike and I last minute decided to do a quick weekend getaway. I am also excited about going back to NYC, and exploring Soho and Meatpacking District this time around. So spur of the moment which is so unlike me. It's all part of the new me.

Good things are coming my way and it's life changing for me. With that said, as much as I hate to do this, I feel that the time is right for me to put an end to The Blarkness Chronicles. It breaks my heart to stop writing on here but it's time. Since I am moving on with different aspects of my life, it's only fitting to leave this blog behind. What first started off with an online journal strictly for myself, it had lead to blog friendships, freebies from companies and a place where I could write whatever I wanted to.

I want to thank all my readers that have been on this journey with me, who read my nonsense and left comments, and who comforted me when my mom left for the States and when my brother died. You guys are like family and I am truly grateful that we have "met" and developed several different levels of friendship. A big part of why I never wanted close out my blog is because I didn't want to lose the friendships I have made. Hopefully we connected on some other level other than just blogging and will manage to stay in touch.

Will I start a another blog? Most likely. I just don't know when and where. But when I do, I hope our paths cross again. If you are interested to know where to find me when I find a new "home", send me an email and I will be sure to drop you a note when I start a new blog. Also, if you want to know where to find me on Pinterest, Twitter or Instagram, let me know. I'd be happy to stay in touch with you that way.

I don't like saying goodbye because it seems so final, I rather say - see you in a bit because I know that we will definitely meet again...


Monday, February 25, 2013

Monday Morning Gossip: roll ups and robots

I missed last Monday so I am going to link up today. I hope I am doing this right because I am not sure if I am to just write about my weekend or write about celebrity gossip.

This past weekend, asides from having to do some work at home, I completed my first order of crayon roll-ups. Technically, my first order was from my sister-in-law, she did pay me for it but my first "real" order is her friend who received one and decided she wanted to use them as birthday party giveaways. I made four last weekend and did the last three yesterday. They are really easy to make and I have pretty much got it down to a science. I plan to just make a bunch more when I have some more time so that if anyone wants to order them, they are ready to go. I have to admit, I am pretty proud of myself.

In between making these roll ups, I had to attempt to make a plush robot that my godson/nephew Blake  wanted. He and his mom found a photo of what he wanted and I basically had to figure out for myself how to put it all together. He has been asking me every week if I made it, I felt bad each time I had to tell him no. Luckily, his birthday party is coming up this weekend and the "yobot" below will be part of his gift. Since it's pretty small, I was too scared to sew up the pieces together with my machine so I hand stitched everything. It took me almost three hours. Man, I hope this kid like the robot.

Thursday, February 21, 2013

Random Thursday: Ridiculous fears

As Lin says, no fear is ridiculous, even if it's our own fear. I have some serious fears, which I don't think are ridiculous - cats, the dark, heights and knives but ridiculous ones...let me think.

Flabby upper arms...I know, weird huh? I am not scared of them in general, I am terrified of my own arms becoming big and flabby. My husband says this is more vanity than a fear. I disagree.

Driving...sometimes I am scared of being in a car with someone who I have never been in a car with. I feel more comfortable being in a car with my husband or mom. And I am also scared of driving myself, which is why I don't have my licence yet [insert your laughter and shock here]

Subway grates...I cannot walk over them. I have to walk around them or jump over them. When Mike and I were in New York, he made me stand over one and I nearly broke out in tears in the middle of Times Square.

Do you have an ridiculous fears you would like 
to share with me?

Tuesday, February 19, 2013

Five beauty products I'm digging

Lately these days, I am not about buying the latest and greatest beauty products. I now tend to stick with what I know and what works for me. Ever since I got bangs, I stick to just eyeliner and a simple routine of concealer, bronzer and blush. And now that we are dead in the middle of winter, my dry lips only accept Vaseline.

I want to share with you some of my current favorite beauty products. I'm sure this list will change once spring comes rolling around.

Burt Bee's Blemish Stick | this is the only product that will work to keep my blemishes/pimples from flaring up. I can't believe that I am in my mid-30s and still dealing with acne. I blame it on my teens and 20s, I seemed to have been blessed to not have to deal with acne then and now my face is paying for it.

CND Solar Oil | since I have become addicted to Artistic Manicures (similar to gel polish/shellac), I have been told by my nail technician to use cuticle oil daily. I guess using olive oil helps but it doesn't do much compared to cuticle oil which has the right ingredients to keep your cuticles hydrated. I keep a travel size bottle in my purse so I can hydrate my nails when needed.

NARS Bronzing Powder in Laguna | when I came back from Punta Cana in December, I needed something to help fake the tan that was fading away. Luckily my friend Kat gave me a barely used one. Everyone loved my "tan", they said I was glowing but in reality, my tan had faded and I was faking it with this bronzer.

Benefit Cha Cha Tint | years ago, I was a cult fan of Benetint but since I am a sucker for anything coral, when this baby came out on the market, it was destiny for us to be together. I love the coral flush it brings on my cheeks and it was perfect with my tan. Be careful though, if not applied properly, your fingers will end up looking like an oompa loompa. Tip: apply with a beauty blender, you'll thank me later.

Eau Thermale Avène Cicalfate | I accidentally came across this product when I was dealing with a bad irritation above my upper lip. The skin was raw and red. A beautician at a drug store recommended this product to me and although, it didn't help the irritation, I have been using it as a face cream. It helps restore damaged skin and leave it so soft.

What are some beauty products you are really into these days?

Monday, February 18, 2013

My safe haven: Josh Duhamel

I think I am in love this guy. Actually I am seriously in love with Josh Duhamel. I just finished reading the Nicholas Sparks book, Safe Haven and since I knew that Josh Duhamel would be starring in, I had no choice but to visualize him while reading. I can't wait to see the movie and even if it's horrible (The Last Song, Dear John - they are nothing compared to A Walk to Remember and The Notebook), I will just be happy to see Josh on the big screen. To me, he has the perfect height, body build, smile, hair, personality, etc. He is just perfect. Don't you think? I know that if my husband is reading this, he would probably roll his eyes. Don't worry Mike, you are like 97% close to being as perfect as him, lol!

Fergie is one lucky lady. I hope she knows that...

Source: imdb.com via Leesh on Pinterest

Source: google.com.my via Leesh on Pinterest

Wednesday, February 13, 2013

Update on me

Note: I'm writing this post from my iPhone

My life in the past month has been turned upside and it's all because of work. My favorite coworker upped and walked away without any notice. She had every reason to but it left my team and I in the worst possible scenario seeing it's our busiest time of the year. I've been going into work early, I've stayed late, I've brought work home and worked in the evenings and weekends. I'm spent, I'm done and I can't see the light at the end of the tunnel. I know that they are planning to hire someone but nothing has happened so far. So because of this, I don't really have a life. I'm too tired to do anything. My workout schedule has gone down the drain and my eating habits are at its worst. Hopefully I will get back on track soon.

I've been able to at least catch up on some Oscar nominated movies - Les Miserables, Django Unchained, Silver Linings Playbook, Life of Pi and I still need to watch Thirty Dark Zero. Even with all these serious movies, I was watched Pitch Perfect and it was awesome. I loved every minute of it and it was totally not what I expected.

I've been reading Safe Haven, the movie opens tomorrow and I want to finish the book before I watch it. So far, so good. It's your typical Nicholas Sparks book. I've got lots of books to read and hopefully I'll meet my goal of 15 books for 2013.

I've become addicted to gel polish. I have been going to Polish'd Nail Bar in downtown Toronto - more on this in another post - and even though an artistic manicure is more expensive, it's worth it. It lasts close to three weeks, it doesn't chip and it dries instantly because it's cured with an LED light.

I made some robot crayons for my godson's birthday giveaways next month. I made over 140 crayons one weekend because I knew I'd be busy with work.

That's about it for now. God, my life is pretty boring. I have some blog posts in mind but I just have to sit down and write them out. It's long weekend coming up so besides sewing and doing some cleaning up, hopefully I'll be about to get some posts out.

I hope everyone is doing well. Drop me a comment and let me know how you are doing and what you are up too.

Thursday, January 31, 2013

Random Thursday: Top 5 Worst TV Shows

Today's topic is the worst shows ever. This was difficult for me because I like to think that if I don't like a show, I won't continue to watch it so I couldn't really come up with five. The shows I have listed were the shows that I think are horrible or that I watched most of the episodes even though I was so annoyed by it. If you want to check out what others think, check out the link up at Linny's Vault today.

Any Kardashian show.  I have a love/hate relationship with this show. Let me tell you that I CAN'T STAND Kim but I don't mind the others. This family is basically fame-whores (except for Bruce because it seems like he is just along for the ride) and attention-seekers. While I didn't mind Kourtney & Khloe's show, I cringe anytime I see Kim. I could go on and on about her but I don't want to waste my time bad-mouthing her.

Breaking Amish. I was so intrigued by the show until I found out that they were actually out of their Amish community for some time before they did this show.

Man vs. Food. It's so disgusting that this man (I don't even know his name) would challenge himself to eat gigantic portions of food.

Jersey Shore. I know that there were lots of people who tuned in but I couldn't stand it. It wasn't entertaining for me at all.

As for a fifth show, I couldn't think another one. I didn't do too well with this topic. I think I would have done better with the best shows that were short-lived and cancelled too soon (hint, hint hosts).

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

2013 Goals

We are already a month into 2013 and I haven't posted my goals for the year. Last year, I was ambitious, this year, I want to be realistic with minimal goals. So better late than never...

Take a class - fitness, language, dance or craft class.

Lose 8 lbs.

Drink more water.

Work out at least 3 times a week.

Try to give real big hugs.

That's it. I'm leaving at this. No explanation. Simple, straight-forward goals.

Sunday, January 20, 2013

Why I don't get along with winter


I hate winter. Maybe hate is too strong of a word, so let me say I dislike the snow and the cold. It's strange for me to say this because I was born in northern Canada (more specific, in Yellowknife, NT - those who live in Canada will know what I am talking about). I lived there for seven years and then I moved to the other northern territory, Whitehorse, YT and stayed there for four years. You would think that after living in a place where the snow never ends and the temperature can dip down to -40, I would be used to the winter season. No...never.

Let me give you the reasons why I don't get along with winter.

One. It's too cold. I don't like the cold. It chills my bones. Give me the heat and humidity any day.

Two. Snow. I don't like it. I will never shovel it and it's a pain to walk through. Good thing we live in a condo where we don't have to shovel the walkway or driveway and the car is parked underground. I will secretly admit when snow falls down in big chunks, it's beautiful.

Three. Winter coats. They are ugly, big and so unflattering. I don't feel pretty in them at all. Sure, I could have a pretty coat but is it going to keep me warm? No. I am old enough to know now that it's better to be practical than stylish, to be warm rather than cold. And also let me tell you that I am not a fan of Canada Goose jackets (although I have heard they are super warm) or Uggs.

Four. Dry skin. Who wants to be flaky, looking like a lizard with scaly skin? Not to mention the dry, chapped lips. No matter how much lotion and lip balm I put on, my skin is never hydrated enough. We recently bought a humidifier and it's helping a bit but nothing is worse than the dry air that is circulating in our home.

Five. Dark nights and dark mornings. I think I only see sunlight on the weekends. It's dark when I leave for work and it's dark when I leave to go home. Nothing can be more depressing than this. No wonder everyone is miserable this time of the year.

Six. Hair filled with static and flyaways. My hair is so flat and has so much static. I know you are suppose to condition to add in moisture because of the dry air but it doesn't work for me. My hair is at its ugliest in the winter. It won't hold a curl and it doesn't work well under a hat.

Seven. Confinement. Since I don't engage in any winter sports and I don't quite like embracing the cold weather, I tend to hibernate. This could be a good thing because I can just curl up on the couch, watch movies or read on the weekend but guess what I end up doing...online shopping. Not good for my budget. If it was summer, I am more likely to window shop instead but with online shopping, there is no such thing as "just browsing".

Eight. Flu, fevers and colds, oh my! I have been so blessed because I am one of the lucky ones who has not caught the flu yet (knock on wood). Winter brings out all kinds of sickness and it's not pretty. I am doing my best to drink lots of fluids (especially emergen-C and o.j.) and wash my hands all the time.

So, you can see why I am not a fan. I rather live in a city where it's warm all year round or escape the winter every year but enjoy the hot, humid days in my hometown. I know I may be a little harsh but it's just not my favorite season. I am more of a summer girl and I can't wait until May hits when the weather starts to warm up. But for now, I will brave each cold days while longing for summer to come.

Do you love winter?

Thursday, January 17, 2013

Random Thursday: What's in my purse

Don't you love when people share what they carry in their purse? Let me tell you that I carry a lot and these days, I am carrying less than I normally do. So, this week's topic is to share with you what's in my purse. If you want to link up, head over to Linny's Vault.

My Cole Haan Crosby Small Shopper bag in Gunsmoke. I love the old vintage look it has and it pretty much carries everything I need without it being too heavy.

So here is what is in my bag. Please excuse the photo, it was taken with my hubby's iPhone. I don't have the patience to take out our real camera. I guess you could always click on the photo to zoom in.

1 | leather gloves
2 | earmuff things that goes around the back of your head. I wore them today and they are superwarm
3 | earphone case and inside are earbuds, just the typical ones that come with the iPhone. I just ordered some swanky ones from Bass Buds.
4 | target reusable bag
5 | notebook where I write down whatever is on my mind and yes, it's decorated with some washi tape
6 | cole haan wallet
7 | receipt stasher that I sewed myself
8 | kobo ereader and sleeve
9 | iPhone
10 | emergen-c - it's flu and cold season so I drink one packet everyday with half juice, half water
11 | makeup bag
12 | kleenex
13 | aveda hand relief - hands are so dry in the winter
14 | kiehl lip balm
15 | floss
16 | mint lindor chocolate and almond nougat
17 | papermate flair pens and metallic sharpies
18 | eos lip sphere in watermelon
19 | USB stick
20 | measuring tape - you don't know how many times this came in handy
21 | washi tape
22 | work passcard

So now, you probably would like to know what's in my makeup bag, well, I am one step ahead of you. I have emptied out the contents to share with you. I really need to go through it because I don't even need half of the stuff in it.

1 | glymm bag - my hubby signed up for Glymm Men and they sent him a woman's subscription box instead so he gave it to me
2 | hair elastic
3 | eye drops
4 | rosebud salve
5 | lip stuff - revlon just bitten lip stain in adore, clinique chubby stick in fuller fig, MAC lipgelée in jellybabe and chanel rouge coco shine in rebelle
6 | lip brush and pacifica roll-on perfume in lotus garden
7 | essie crystal nail file
8 | mirror/brush
9 | hand sanitizer
10 | oral-B tooth picks
11 | steroid cream for my upper lip - very bad dry skin in the winter time, this is my saviour
12 | advil in a kinder surprise container

So that's it from me. I hope you enjoying peeking into my purse. Now let me know, what are some random items that you carry in your purse?

Sunday, January 13, 2013

One Thing

As much as I adore One Direction, I am not talking about their song, One Thing, I am more thinking along the lines of certain items you really only need one thing of. As I was folding my pajamas one day, I thought that although I have many shorts, legging or jogging pants that I sleep in, it's nice to have one really nice flannel pajama set (for the days you are sick) or a silk pair because they are just so nice to sleep in.


Then I thought of two other things that you really only need one of...

Red lipstick
Once you find that one bold red statement lipstick, then it's what you stick with. No need to find any others. Me? I have yet to find my perfect red lipstick. Any suggestions?

I bought a Cole Haan Crosby Slim Wallet in a Pewter colour and it's my favorite. It's pretty thin, has lots of compartments but what I love most is the pocket in back for my Presto card (it's the card I use on my commute). There is really no need to have more than one wallet if you have the perfect one that fits all your cards.

What are some things you only need one of? 
This is sort of stemming from Thursday's post on hoarding...

Thursday, January 10, 2013

Random Thursday: Item I often hoard

It's been a while since I have participated in Random Thursday. If you want to join in the fun, head over to Linny's Vault and link up. Today's topic is hoarding. I use to be a hoarder but after marriage and moving in with someone, you learn that you can't keep everything.

Washi tape - my lately obsession. I have several rolls and I want more. I will use this cute tape to put together goodie bags and packages, to decorate my notebooks and file folders, I even have a Pinterest board so I can keep track of all the cool things you can do with them. Believe me when I tell you I have more kicking around - one in my bag, one at work, one on the dining room table...

Business cards - they are all nicely inserted in a business card binder. I am so obsessed with colour combos and how creative people will get with their cards.

eos lip spheres - I love these little spherical wonders. I have ones that I will use and the ones that will just sit around and look pretty.

Handwritten letters - I still keep all the letters that were passed along to be during classes from high school. It's memories man!

Books - Before I got my e-reader, I would keep every book that I have read. Now they are all in the storage locker in huge bins. I really have to sort through them and only keep a selected few, many series books.

Cards - I have kept every birthday and Christmas card given to me. Crazy huh? I am not that bad anymore but now I keep all photo cards of birth announcements, birthdays and Christmas greetings. I figure someone spent time and money to print it, I might as well keep it as a keepsake.

What do you hoard?

Saturday, January 5, 2013

When a friendship turns sour...

...can it ever become sweet again?

It's been exactly one year today that I last spoke to a very good friend of mine. For the past year, I never mentioned it on my blog and I only talked about it deeply with selected friends. I don't really know what happened, it's a blur of events but it ended with my friend cutting me off, 100 % completely. I did ask twice if I could see my friend to discuss but my friend declined the first time because my friend was busy and the second time, I didn't receive a reply. I stopped trying after that. Does that make me a bad friend?

I saw my friend four times in 2012. The first time was only weeks after the blur of events and we avoided each other. The second time we were forced into a situation unintentionally and made small talk. The third time we partied, danced and got drunk and the last time I saw her, we drank and just chatted.

Are we friends again? Yes and no. We are civil when we see each other but our friendship will never be the same. In order for that to happen, we will need to talk about the blur of events. Will that ever happen? For now, not on my part because I really can't pinpoint what I did and I can't apologize for something I don't know I did. Do I want it to happen? Of course! My friend was a great friend and I do miss my friend but there's a lot more, I think, to the whole situation. It's just hard to believe that a year has gone by and we are still not friends.

Will we ever have a sweet friendship again? Maybe. Time will tell. The one good thing I can feel right now is that there is no hatred between us. I greeted my friend a happy birthday on their birthday and they greeted me on mine. That means something right? As long as we can be civil for now and build from that, it's baby steps and maybe one day, we will talk about the blur of events and sort it all out. Hopefully sooner than later because you don't want to go on living life with regrets.